So, for the final day of 2012's Things I Love...
I'm going to be really honest right now, so don't judge me.
A good girlfriend gave me the wisest words just before I had Tilley-Gray. If you are planning on having children, or in the process, or are a new mom, I want to share these encouraging words with you as well. She told me...
"It's OK if you don't love it at first, motherhood that is. You will love her to pieces, but being a mom is hard. You will eventually love it, I promise."
She was so completely and totally right and I'm so glad that she shared that with me. What she told me is one of the greatest gifts I've been given.
For the first few weeks of being a mom, I didn't love it. It's hard and it's not at all what you think it's going to be. Motherhood is amazing, don't get me wrong, but it's unapologetically difficult. My mom was with me for the first week and after she left, Gray found me sitting in our bathroom floor hysterically crying. Yes, my hormones were out of control, but I felt awful because I wasn't loving being a mom. Then I was reminded of what my girlfriend told me, and the next day I turned the corner.
Motherhood is so unique and unlike anything else. It's amazing to be able to have someone completely love you and need you with no reservation. It's the only time in life that I think that really happens. The way that she looks at me and coos and smiles, and the way she calms so easily when I soothe her is amazing. I love Tilley-Gray with all of my heart. I worry about her at night when she is alone in her nursery. I'll wake up in the middle of the night and tip toe into her nurser, just to make sure she is OK.
I also love that I have the opportunity to stay home. We have play dates and lunch dates and I fit my work in between when she naps or late at night. My sweet mother-in-law comes on Mondays so I can get a lot of my work done and run what errands I need to run. I have had a baby sitter a few times in the past month, which is so important. But you know what? I miss her when I"m away. Which is nice because that time away reminds me of how much I love her and love being a mom.
Thank you so much for letting me share all of my favorite things with you this month! I hope you have enjoyed it as much as I have! Every email, every comment, and every new follower really makes my day and I appreciate y'all for reading this little blog of mine.
xoxo
